August 21, 2006

Path to Enlightenment

I feel like crap this morning and I don't know why.  I'm reading this book right now that is supposed to help me control my negative emotions and it says in order for me to do that I need to identify what thoughts are causing those emotions.  So I know I feel like crap right now and I don't like it but I also don't feel like spending the time to discover what unconscious thoughts are causing this negative emotion.

At first I thought I didn't want to do this because I just woke up and am tired.  But as I am writing this I am discovering that part of the reason I don't want to look deep inside my unconscious is out of fear.  Now I just have to figure out what I'm afraid of, which would probably also show me what is making me feel all crappy. 

Enlightenment can be such a pain in the ass sometimes.

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