October 29, 2006

I was at Coles, and when I'm there I read

From Friendship With God by Neale Donald Walsch:

"Again I say: put an End to Better.

For this is the New Gospel: There is no master race. There is no greatest nation. There is no one true religion. There is no inherently perfect philosophy. There is no always right
political party, morally supreme economic system, or one and only way to

Erase these ideas from you memory. Eliminate them from you experience.
Eradicate them from your culture. For these are thoughts of division and
separation, and you have killed each other over these thoughts. Only
the truth I give you here will save you: WE ARE ALL ONE.

Carry this message far and wide, across oceans and over continents, around
the corner and around the world." p359

"That old message of right and wrong, crime and punishment, good and evil,
everlasting rewarding and everlasting damnation, has done nothing to end the
suffering on your planet, to end the torture that you are inflicting upon
yourselves. And that is because it is a message of separation.

There is only one message that can change the course of human history
forever, end the torture, and bring you back to God. That message is The
New Gospel: WE ARE ALL ONE." p373

"Yet I have told you, this is God. This is what you mean, what
you have always meant, by the word God. God is first cause. Unmoved Mover. That
Which Was before That Which Is, was. That Which Will Be after That Which Now Is,
is no longer. The Alpha and Omega. The beginning and the End." p378

"Remember this, always: The soul is that which beholds
beauty even when the mind denies it.
" p385

The movie Conversations With God is now playing in limited release around the country. I saw it last night with my parents and my good friend's parents. I asked Lee how she would describe the movie and she said, "Enlightening." I would love to take a bunch of you lovely people to see it with me, or at least I recommend that you see it for yourself. You can look it up at www.Moviefone.com.
But if you're interested in joining me leave a note, send a message, or give me a call.
And remember always to keep an open mind.


October 16, 2006

What I Read Today When Working Out at Coles

From Friendship With God by Neale Donald Walsch

"To be totally accepting means not to quarrel with what is showing up right now. It means not to reject it, or throw it back, or walk away from it, but to embrace it, hold it, love it as if it were your own. Because it is your own. It is your own creation, with which you are well pleased -- unless you are not.

If you are not, you will resist owning what you have created, and what you resist persists. Therefore rejoice, and be glad, and should the present circumstance or condition be one which you now choose to change, simply choose to experience it in another way. The outward appearance, the outward manifestation, may not be altered at all, but your inner experience of if can and will be changed forever, simply out of your decision about it.

Remember, this is what you are after. You are not concerned with outer appearances, only with your inner experience. Let the outer world be what it is. Create your inner world as you would have it be. This is what is meant by being in your world, but not of it. This is mastery in living." p320-1

"...the most powerful prayer I ever heard. Thank you, God, for helping me to understand that this problem has already been solved for me.

The next time you are confronted with a condition or circumstance you judge to be problematical, express your immediate gratitude not only for the solution, but for the problem itself. By so doing, you instantly change your perspective on it, and your attitude about it.

Next, bless it...Give it your best energies and your highest thought.  In this, you make it your friend, and not your enemy; that which supports you, rather that that which opposes you.

Then, accept it, and resist no evil. For what you resist, persists. Only what you accept can you change.

Now, envelop it with love. Whatever you are experiencing, you can literally love any undesired experience away. In a sense, you can 'love it to death.'

Finally, be joyful, for the exact and perfect outcome is at hand. Nothing can take your joy away from you, for joy is Who You Are, and who you will always be. So, in the face of every problem, do a joyful thing." p327

The Five Attitudes of God (and Us):

Grateful, Blessing, Accepting, Loving, Joyful.


"If he is seen as wearing two hats, reporters as well as the public will inevitably wonder: Is he speaking to us now as the traditional press secretary, or is he speaking to us as a political partisan?"
DAVID R. GERGEN, an adviser to four presidents, on Tony Snow's sideline role as a speaker at fund-raisers for Republican candidates.

October 15, 2006


"Duke has been the wake-up call. People always thought big-time coaches might be the face of the institution, but Duke proved it can be the athletes who are the face of the institution."
CONSTANCE NEARY, a risk analyst, on universities that are cracking down on misbehavior by athletes.

October 14, 2006


"He proved the impossible: that the poor were bankable."
JONATHAN J. MORDUCH, an economics professor at New York University, on Muhammad Yunus, who won the Nobel Peace Prize for pioneering work in giving tiny loans to millions of poor people.

October 13, 2006


"When we are working, we are working nervously. We are carrying our souls in our hands."
SABAH AL-ATIA a trash collector in Baghdad.

October 11, 2006


Devouring time, blunt thou the lion's paws, and make the earth devour her own sweet brood; pluck the keen teeth from the fierce tiger's jaws, and burn the long-lived phoenix in her blood; make glad and sorry seasons as thou fleets, and do whate'er thou wilt, swift-footed time, to the wide world and all her fading sweets; but I forbid thee one most heinous crime: O, carve not with thy hours my love's fair brow, nor draw no lines there with thine antique pen; him in thy course untainted do allow for beauty's pattern to succeeding men. Yet, do thy worst, old time: despite thy wrong, my love shall in my verse ever live young.


A Release

Nobody cares.  Not one single person.

Actually that's not fair, my friends care and I love them for it. 

My friends care.  I love my friends.  So maybe I should be happy with that.  Happy with the mutual love of friendship.

But in the end my friends won't fuck me.  Nope I pretty much am fucked by everyone else.

So people say I'm good looking.  Fuck that, they don't care.  They don't care what I look like, and they don't care who I am.

If I wanna fuck you, then you don't give a fuck about me.  Thank you, thank you for making perfect sense.

Ok yeah, I'm desperate.  I'm desperate for a decent person.  I'm desperate for someone well adjusted, who is mature, who is open minded, who sees the surface, who sees inside, who makes sense.  Who fucking MAKES SENSE.  Don't be an ass, tell me you're sorry, then continue to be an ass.

I need someone to hurt me.  I want to feel the pain of loving someone.  That sweet pain.  I want to carry the burden of loving someone.  That warm embrace. 

I'm desperate for him.  I'm desperate for her.  Yes I know I'm desperate.  Desperation is my love turned sour.  It infects my soul.  Love into desperation, now fetid in my heart.

I live in delusion, delusion and solitude.  I live in illusion, illusion of pain.

I feel separate from you.

I want to thank you. I want to help you and use you. I want to embrace you. I want to love you and trust you. I want to know you.

Will you know me. Will you trust me. Will you love me. Will you embrace me. Will you use me. Will you help me. Will you thank me.  Will you please.

I feel separate from you.

You, You, You, You, You.

I am talking to You.  What would love do now?  What the fuck does that mean?


Thank God for my friends.  They are the best.  I love you all, really I do.  I don't say that enough.  I love you all.  All of you.  Every single one of you.  Every single person who smiles at me.  Every person who calls me back when I call them.  Every person who has stopped to see how I was, and then listened to me.  Every person who has asked me to listen to them.  The people I laugh with, walk with, eat with, and talk with.  The people I sing with, dance with, party with, and love with.  I love you all, and if you don't think I'm talking to you then you are mistaken.  Once I know you, I can't help but love you.  You are beautiful and perfect.  That is the truth.

Thank God.  God I am grateful.  Grateful for the people you have set in my life.

October 09, 2006

Living Limitless

Not Gay, Not Straight, Not Bi

Labels are limiting.  I will not put myself into a box.

For what greater gift could I receive than another person's love?

"There is no form and there is no manner in which the expression of love that is pure and true is inappropriate."

-- Neale Donald Walsch, Friendship With God